Ok, I am the kind of person who doesn't always mix well with others. I have had some shit friends in the past, so I won't go out of my way to really meet people. It has been hardwired into my brain that most people will in fact treat me like shit. I have a handful of really awesome friends, and that is enough for me.
One problem with this pessimistic view of people is that none of my friends are here in Pittsburgh with. They all are back home in Philadelphia, and get to see each other all the time. I miss them and haven't been meeting a lot of people, so I have gotten a little lonely.
Last night, in my dorm room, I was just thinking about how maybe I should've gone to school closer to home. I was thinking how uncomfortable I was here, and how much I wasn't connecting with the other girls on my floor, other than my roommate. But I have known my roommate for years, therefore she doesn't count. Well, as I was thinking this (and feeling sorry for myself as usual) one of the girls on my floor came into my room. She invited my roomie and I to watch a movie in her room. I decided to go, because at least i would get a movie out of it. About 11 of us were crammed into this little dorm room watching Big Fat Liar and Our Lips Are Sealed (a Mary Kate and Ashley production).
Now I won't say I am completely comfortable. I don't know how close I will ever be with these girls. But last night in that room watching terrible movies, making Inception comparisons to the MK+A movie, guessing who would come back drunk, and go on a unsuccessful hunt for orange juice, I started to think that maybe, in time, I could find my tight-knit group of friends here. How long that will take, however, is the daunting part.
See, it was ironic. Wait...it was right. I am a college student, I really should be sure if this was irony or not. That's not good...
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